Friday, February 20, 2009

Friday falling...

rapidly towards dusk.

I've spent the last two days doing some early "spring cleaning". When Bill and Laura's cats moved in with us the took over one bedroom, as one of them can't be trusted to stay out of the trash or any other food he can find; the other has a penchant for hiding and we fear if he gets in the basement we won't see him for a week.

The things that were stacked up in one corner of that room awaiting shelves and sorting hastily moved into the 2nd bedroom and in the throes of whatever has been dragging me down of late, I hadn't felt like dealing with it.

This weekend is John and Noel's 10th anniversary, my sister is taking Dillon and we have Talia and Caleb, so I needed to finally "caffeine up" and "get to it". I'm done now except for the final vacuuming and waiting for my sinuses to settle a bit before I start.

No good news concerning my last post; I don't really expect any and am assuming I'm just going to be "out of pocket" and grateful I'm not there going through the misery those I left behind are. If I don't hear from the apps I put in this last week by Wednesday I'll start putting in some others.

I read a piece about "surivivor's guilt" associated with lay-offs and such a few months ago. I never thought I'd understand it, but I do! As the young still there lose their jobs and the older ones do more work on the same jobs for less, knowing I got out and (so far) am collecting my pension and retaining some semblence of health care gives me great cause for gratitude and guilt.

I don't know where this will all end up; perhaps with a collapse worth of Ayn Rand's "Atlas Shrugged", perhaps with those smart enough forming their own collectives or co-ops to survive. An underground economy of barter, perhaps?

I do know I'm not going to "go" quietly! I'm not going to just "lie down" and give up...

So for what it's worth, may you each have a lovely weekend and may life somehow be kind to each of you!

alan

5 comments:

beckyboop said...

I feel like there is going to be a revolution in the near future.

United States citizens used to look up to the people with the mansion on hill and think they could have that some day. We look now and think, "We should get that MF."

robin andrea said...

I vacillate between hope and despair. This week the scales have been tilted way down. Obama did say that things were going to get worse before they got better. He's right about the getting worse part, so far...

Green tea said...

I heard someone say on TV the other night,
"Bush started the car on fire and threw the keys to Obama"

Now the conservatives are re-writing History to blame this economy on the Democrats.
I didn't think people were that stupid until I watched a Documentary on HBO filmed by Nancy Pelosi's daughter Alexandra, during the election.

Right America Feeling Wronged

Now I am frightened by all the gun toting racist rednecks who adore Sarah Palin.
We are in some really scary times Alan, be glad you got out when you did and don't feel guilty.

chosha said...

Feel grateful, not guilty. We all muddle our way through life and we actually have very little control over so many things. This just wasn't your time to deal with the harder circumstances.

zilla said...

Gratitude is where it's at, man. You're a provider in so many ways, Alan, and it's right that you're provided for.

Chin up, elbows out, soldier on!